It Was Not One Fading Bad Dream. It Was So Much More

By The Sunrise Warrior / October 3, 2021
It Was Not One Fading Bad Dream. It Was So Much More by @1SunriseWarrior #BadDream #abuse #SexualAbuse

*Trigger Warning* Fading Memories Thirty-seven years ago, I began building walls around the memories of my child abuse to compartmentalize a traumatic and embarrassing time in my life. I was molested for seven long years, and I was ready to turn the page. My abuser saw the opportunity with me when my dad died. I…

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No More Excuses. A Day In My Life As A Dad At One Hundred Percent!

By The Sunrise Warrior / July 24, 2021
No More Excuses. A Day In My Life As A Dad At One Hundred Percent! by @1SunriseWarrior #dad #dads #life #LifeLessons

Two of my kids were competing in a swim meet recently at our township pool. It was a great event and I had fun watching all the kids compete. My two swimmers, who aren’t the strongest swimmers on the team, did well and improved on their personal bests in five of their six races. Setting…

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It’s About Darn Time. My Friends Are Going To Love The Real Me!

By The Sunrise Warrior / July 22, 2021
It's About Darn Time. My Friends Are Going To Love The Real Me! by @1SunriseWarrior #friends #friend #SexualAbuse

My Friends I was recently at the beach with a group of buddies I’ve been friends with for thirty-five years. They are a good group of friends and we have been doing this guy’s weekend for twenty-eight years. Over those years, we’ve shared a lot together…. graduations, jobs, marriages, promotions, career changes, kids, divorces, and…

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My Second Battle With My Monster. This One Is For My Freedom!

By The Sunrise Warrior / July 11, 2021
My Second Battle With My Monster. This One Is For My Freedom! by @1SunriseWarrior #battle #SexualAbuse #1in6

How do you start a story about a truly sensitive subject, a subject that traditionally lives in layers and layers of secrecy? This is the question I’ve been asking myself as I journeyed to reassemble the pieces of the past that I buried years ago to process, grieve, and fuel my actions in a positive…

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Rest In Peace, Dad. I Hope They Have Grape Jellies In Heaven!

By The Sunrise Warrior / June 19, 2021
Rest In Peace, Dad. I Hope They Have Grape Jellies In Heaven! by @1SunriseWarrior #dad #dads #family #alcoholic

Early Loss I find myself thinking about my dad often lately. He’s been dead for forty-four years, but it’s like he has been sitting next to me these last couple of years. I was six and my little brother was one when my dad died. My mother was a stay-at-home mom when he passed, but…

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Communities Build Strength And Are Built One Person At A Time

By The Sunrise Warrior / June 13, 2021
Communities Build Strength And Are Built One Person At A Time by @1SunriseWarrior #community #communities #sexualabuse

Developing a community around my dark past was my first step towards healing from the deep wounds of child molestation. Every time I share my story with a person in my life, I heal a little more. I get stronger and more confident. I like to refer to this as getting comfortable in my own…

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What’s A Best Friend Look Like? Don’t Mind That Monster Behind The Curtain

By abadmin / May 2, 2021
What’s A Best Friend Look Like? Don’t Mind That Monster Behind The Curtain by @1SunriseWarrior #monster #football #sexualabuse

*Trigger warning: non-explicit mention of grooming and childhood sexual abuse. Losing My Dad My father spent the last month and a half of his life in the hospital before he died in the late 1970s. I was a six-year-old boy at the time. I wasn’t sure why he was sick in the hospital but later…

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I Love Roller Coasters! The Tale Of Three Experiences

By The Sunrise Warrior / April 23, 2021
I Love Roller Coasters! The Tale Of Three Experiences by @1SunriseWarrior #rollercoasters #rollercoaster #family #abuse

Who Doesn’t Like Roller Coasters? My sunrise is much bigger than gaining control of my physical health. It’s about living with a healthy mind, body, and spirit. It has become woven into the inner fabric of my life. When my oldest child was born fourteen years ago, I became the fun parent. The one who…

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The Man Who Scares Me Most Is Me. Will I Become A Monster, Too?

By The Sunrise Warrior / April 15, 2021
The Man Who Scares Me Most Is Me. Will I Become A Monster, Too? by @1SunriseWarrior #monster #sexualabuse #family

Nightmares of my Monster and Triggers Here is the fear that haunted me for so many years of my life…Will I one day become a pedophile like the monster who molested me? There is a popular myth that most pedophiles are victims of child molestation themselves. Did my molestation predispose me to this life sentence?…

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Goodbye Mom. I’m Glad We Finally Met After All These Years!

By The Sunrise Warrior / April 13, 2021
Goodbye Mom. I’m Glad We Finally Met After All These Years! by @1SunriseWarrior #mom #goodbye #years

My Big Decision – Telling My Mom Ten months ago: I’m on my way to work and I have a strong urge to drive to the cemetery and visit my mom. I have this undeniable feeling that my mother is trying to send me a message from beyond. I felt a similar urge to visit…

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